I have officially logged out of facebook for a period of time. I feel i've been living my life for the stories and putting up with not so great situations so I can tell a "seems to be great" story. Basically I have been conflicted in my life the last little while, and i think that having the chance to write it all down for my imaginary fanbase might help me get it a bit understood.
Rock and Roll. Guitars, Drugs, Alcohol, Girls. The party lifestyle. I dont know how many of you live this life. It seems really fun from the outside. So fun in fact that I decided I wanted a taste of it. And then 3 years later, your broke and way too available for any sort of debotchery that might come your way. I have fun by killing myself. I know what it feels like to get high. I know what it feels like to get drunk. and I know that I hate cigarettes. There is a new band called "And so i watch you from afar" and they have a song called "dont waste your time doing things you hate". So in a last ditch effort to rid of the pain of all the fun Im having I thought that i would keep a blog to keep track of the progress.
I miss having a constant relationship to God. I miss my honest and loving friends. when i was fully dedicated to achieving excellence I could be all alone and feel excellent, take it as a time to reflect and be alone with God.
Rock and Roll would have you be alone at all times. even when in the middle of a bumpin party.
Over the next while just based on who I think I am there should be a lot to read about. Rock and Roll confessions, God talks, Love talks, mmmm love...., Guitars, general life, and anything else that my mind might be going through day by day.
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